random facts: confessions

I've pondered upon this post for a while if I should make it public or not as i would have to share something that is quite the opposite from the impression I may have given the blogosphere about me. I don't mean to shatter my flirty and playful image HAHAHA! but what the heck, i'm spilling the beans..

I have been celibate for 5 years. *cricket noise* *deafening silence* Hahaha! But seriously, it's a pact I made with myself not to engage in casual sex. As a backgrounder, it was in 2005 that I got extremely confused of my identity and I wanted to see if I was really badingerzi. And so I've arranged a one night stand with someone I met in one of the YM Chatrooms who happens to live nearby. Head ng mga sakristan pala ang putangina at may kwarto sya sa extension ng simbahan!

I sat there on his bed with him beside me, both quietly waiting for someone to make the first move. He then asked me, "what do we do now?", as i was literally shaking and all I could utter was an innocent, "I don't know". He grabbed my hand and placed it onto his crotch, I felt his semi-flaccid member inside his basketball shorts as he slowly guides my naïve hands to caress his now-hardening dick.

Just when I thought that would go oh so perfect, it was halfway through the deed when i just wanted to get dressed and leave. Out of disgust. Nagpapa-mhin ba ako sa puntong ito? Hindi. Hahaha. It just didn't feel right at that time. And he was boring me to death. lols.

SEBs ain't my thing. No affection, no nothing, just pure lust. I don't wanna end up feeling disgusted each and every time... well at least that's what i think for now. Open naman ako to be proven wrong about this. HAHA. jowk!

I have to admit though when it comes to anything "cyber", limit is non-existent. lols.

For the past 5 years, I didn't ever have to worry of falling into this temptation as I was basically living a straight life. I don't go to gay bars and neither do i go guy-hunting. Homebody lang si wimpy kid. Hehe. Ang inuman naman ay pag may magyaya lang sa tropa, usually sa central or kung saan mang gilid gilid na wala namang hook ups na nagaganap. Nagpapa-mhin ba ulit ako sa puntong ito? Hindi pa din. Hahaha. I know who I am and what I want, hindi ko lang hinahanap actively sa real world. Hehe.

Ok. May magbabato ba sakin ng kamatis? At magbu-"BOO!"?

Wag po wag po! LOL.